Our harvest season has come to an end. The days and nights are equally cold, fallen leaves litter the ground, and we recently celebrated a New moon/Samhain ritual.
Though our summer included drought, the garden and fruit trees gave me many gifts. Gifts which are now in cold-storage, the freezer, or already eaten 🙂 I learned, and am still learning, about water conservation and permaculture, mostly by listening to the land. I hope next year brings as many delights.
Other gifts, of the year, have included a surge of mental focus resulting in completion of a number of documents supporting the work of Pagan Clergy: professional development, ethics, licensure, Grievance models, mandated reporting, and caring for our communities.
Samhain is a time that emphasizes thanks-giving, solitude, and honoring of Ancestors. It’s also a time that emphasizes loneliness for me, and my struggle with depression can deepen if I lose my focus on insights, opportunities, and growth. I miss those who have had a profound impact on my life, and constantly remind myself that their spirit, their words, and their comfort, is still very much available.
I am not so attached to the living, and that leaves me sad as I watch others connect with friends and family. What shall I do about this, if anything? What has it taught me? About myself? About others? How can I be in-service if I still feel so disconnected? How does this disconnection help me?
We all have strengths. We often perceive them as weaknesses. This season of reflection can guide the process of self-awareness, integration, changing old habits, setting aside outworn coping mechanisms, and learning how to grow in new and wonderful ways.
In darkness, may you find light. Blessings to each and everyone of you.